Rawrrrr

I wanna go to a LIVE show soon. Somewhere in Denver.. yeah. And lots of baseball games.

In the words of Lady Gaga

You're not gonna reach my telephone.

Today. I woke up and decided that a trip out of Summit County was much needed. No agenda. My plan was to drive around and check things out in Denver. Grabbed Mike and hit the road. Drove up Loveland pass- 1st time for me. It was pretty awesome. I learned that the over-sized semis and tankers have to take Loveland because they are not allowed in the tunnel on 70. If they explode it could make the mountain crumble.. I made that last part up but it might have something to do with it. Drove to the beer store so Mike could brew his own.. well it's closed one day a week... guess what day that is? Yep. Monday. Which is today. Hah sad. Decided that I wanted to see the Garden of the Gods again.. Set out for Colorado Springs which is another 60 miles or so South of Denver. It was crazy to see Mountains on my Right and flatness on my Left. Garden of the Gods is just as pretty as I remembered it. Crazy red rock structures surrounded by trees and desert-like plants. We set off for a hike - it was super hot out but the hike was fun and easy... cept for the rattlesnake that snuck out in front of me. After hiking and looking at the balancing rock back to Denver it was. Took a random road somewhere in Denver and drove by a park.. and through a pretty neighborhood. Parked at a meter.. threw some quarters in and hung out on 16th street. It was nice to be in a city again and just people watch while drinking a Denver-brewed beer. After returning to the home slate.. we ate some noodles and co anddddd went to see 'How to Train your Dragon' in 3D. It was realllly cute...and I want a Dragon now. One that blows fire preferably. weeeeeeelp.. Time to get 5 hours of sleep before work in my lonely apartment. I hope my roomies make it back home safe! I'll miss them.

cutting the pop

that beach may have no sand or palm trees but it's my kinda beach.

SO I decided today that I'm not going to drink any pop (soda) for 2 weeks.. I've clearly been drinking wayyy too much this winter and now that I work at a restaurant.. well it's free. Lemon water please. I've also got 14 days to find a new place to live.. so maybe when I move into my new place I'll celebrate with a huge mountain dew!

On my hike/jog/run by the lake today I took a different route home randomly. I passed a man cutting his grass.. it was brown.. but it smelled amazing.. I can't wait for things to start turning green. So while I'm waiting.. I'll be making money..house hunting.. and hiking more.. anddd waiting for my friends to return to CO and hopefully hang out with the ones that are still here.

MN you're on my mind. I'll be back soonish.

right?

you'll pay eventually

Sleep. Dreams. 2 things that I like. my favorite things to do right now. my next day off i think im gonna stay in allll day and sleep. lately my dreams have been better than life itself. sometimes? i'm waiting for my brain to adjust to the changing of seasons. singing the same songs i sang last year at this time. let's do no repeats. same thing different place. how long will that last? what's the point.

still my favorite song:... on repeat for hours..:

2nd fav song:..:

it's the dream where you want to wake up and hope it was real. so much that it almost hurts. until we meet again...

right now.

choices.. options.. decisions

Here I am.. 2:30 am.. I did nothing tonight except stress about how my life has no direction right now. April is never a good month for me.. maybe it has something to do with the changing seasons. The best thing I did was move out here to Colorado.. I met some pretty amazing people.. some in which are leaving or already left. I also wasted time on some things when I should have spent more on others. big. waste. of. time. I moved out here for me. Not anyone else. I'm tired of unnecessary stress. unnecessary stress is making me tired. I'm trying really hard not to pack up my car and leave... to where.. I don't know?

I spent a good amount of time looking at missing people online. It is such an eerie feeling. What if someone you saw everyday went missing.. I only came about this because of an article in a cosmopolitan magazine. One that I should probably have a subscription to since I spend almost $5 on it every month.

I rode keystone all day today.. closing day. got some good slushy riding in. I may or may not attend the employee ride day tomorrow.. or today however you look at it. this is only if i wake up in time. at this point it's looking like ill sleep the whole day away. anyways..after riding i went to city market.. which is like a cub foods in mn... it was there that i purchased bread.. avocados.. cherry tomatoes.. cheese..lettuce.. ice cream cookie sandwiches.. chips.. spaghettios.. 2 cokes.. some vitamin water.. and 3 magazines.. solid shopping. I also rented a movie call 'an education' which i pre-ordered online.. guess what? i didn't watch it. yet. i also didn't do my laundry that i said i would do. very productive night on the couch. i even got lazy capitalizing my "i"s.

this song is weird.. i liked the tune but not sure about the lyrics

i rock out to this while snowboarding

....and the video makes me wanna dress up like a butterfly? or learn how to play bass.. and not end up on celebrity rehab

makes me feel like im spinning around really fast

still spinning

coming home? it's not something you know about

thoughtful mac n cheese

I need to get out of this place.

in search of

Mike Snow- Remedy -Crookers RemiX

Yay for Baseball season.. Yay for snow in April.. Yay for Sat-Mon offffffffff to do some spring riding!

Dear Last Night..

Hiiiiiiiii -

Dear Last Night.. I think we got off on the wrong foot. It's funny what the sun can do.. but the sun isn't even up... I'm ready to ROCK today. I'm working at my new job in Breck today - I hate the drive...butttt oh well... and it snowed out.. crap.

Hopefully I'll see my friends over there tonight? Tomorrow is my last day at MGS!!!!!! It's saddddd.... wtf happened

boooootyyy shakin

Sway Feat. Akon - Silver & Gold - MyVideo

faded through

How do we get through the things we do?

I have some friends who are extremely strong. The things they have been through- I can hardly imagine what it's like. There is nothing you can do for them except be there.. if that.

I hate these weird feelings.. I had such a fun, silly day. Then I get one feeling of random uncertainty and it all goes away. Look back at where you were a year ago. It doesn't seem that long ago- but it was and it's gone. I could write a book about each one of my friends.. and random stories... but what would I write about myself? Is this where I wanna be?

things build around me and stay together while I tear apart and grow distant. never that one that is worth sticking around.